Birthday Peace

December 26th. My birthday. The day my existence is acknowledged. The WORST day in my life besides Christmas. Great. I feel like every year that one day should revolve around them. I am nice to people on their birthday because they deserve to feel good. I feel that important people in your life should be recognized for what they do and who they are. My birthday? I wake up to a great "Happy birthday Ms. Pissy." Wow. That's what every person wants to hear first thing on their birthday. The.  One thing I asked for was quiet--just to get to sleep in and have a little time to myself... but instead I wake up to that great saying and people trying to force store-bought presents down my throat. What ever happened to quiet and a little bit of time to yourself? How do people live like this? I need to buy a remote island.

Level

It's not that there's anything wrong with me, it's just that I don't think there's anything right.

Christmas

I don't mean to be the Grinch, but I really dislike Christmas... It's the time where your family comes together and pretends to be perfect for the sake of pictures that will last a lifetime. It's a time where tradition is kept and smiles are supposed to be baked. Where people come together to celebrate family. And I can't stand it. There's so many bad memories, and my family is gone. How do you celebrate a single day that ironically marks one of the worst days you can remember? How would you want to remember something so sad that it makes you want to burst into lonesome tears every time you see a Christmas tree? I don't. I don't like looking at Christmas trees. I can't stand the look of happiness on other people's faces. I can't be around so many people filled with happiness while I rot away inside myself. I cannot stand Christmas.

Imagination

It hasn't been until now that I realize what I believe in. Many people believe in religion, have faith, follow their instincts or heart. I believe in imagination. Imagination is what propels me forward when I think I'm done. It's what keeps me going when I want to give up. It's my savior from all the stupidity I find myself putting up with. I love imagination. My imagination is where I want to live. It's what I want to follow, it's how I'm going to choose to write my life. I need it more than anything, because without imagination I would be nowhere. I can't say I don't listen to instinct or other beliefs in my life; but more than anything, I believe in imagination. Without imagination, the world would go nowhere. So I am going farther than I ever thought I would be. I am going to live, and doing with the love of my life; Imagination.