It

I can feel my heart freeze over when you call for me. The water dripping and freezing my veins... My shivers warning me, goosebumps racing down my whole body. Worries bouncing around in my head. No more tears, just spine tingling screams. Wrists red with blood from silent demons. A pitch black soul from pain. Not an ounce of happiness left. Nothing. Hatred fills my eyes. Lips turn purple. Who knew one could feel so... empty?

lyrics

"I won't wait much longer, cause these walls they're crashing down, and I keep coming up short."

.......

Just wow. Finally, just wow.

money

Money can't buy happiness. It is the one impossible thing in the world. Unless you are stupid enough to believe that it can't, it is the one impossible thing. Money does not buy happiness. Unfortunately some people just cannot seem to get that through their skulls.

inspiration

Inspiration comes from the heart. A reaction from emotions. The output to an input full of feeling.

You see something, you react, and the gears in your mind start turning. Or at least that's how it works for me. I am an artist, I am a writer, I am a dreamer. I am who I am, and I work how I work, and no one will ever change that about me.

But isn't that the truth? You could say that all inspiration starts with emotion. That's where I pull mine from. When my friend discovered suicide? I took that depression and turned it into something beautiful. A beautifully depressing piece of art, and a depressing, strengthening, poem. My inspiration not only comes from my emotion, my inspiration IS my emotion. My ideas, my thought process, my art. It's all emotion, how it works, how I feel, what I've become.

It's my inspiration, my emotion.

tear cancelation

I've only cried over one guy. Those tears were wasted. Don't expect me to cry for you, too.

Cause I'm not going to.

You can't let one arrogant asshole ruin your whole life.

Here's why

You want to know why I won't open up to you? You want to know why I won't tell you even though you mean everything to me? You want to know why it's hard? You want to know why it hurts so much? You want to know why I started not to care? Why nothing matters? Why I'm so tough? Why I have anger and depression issues?

                                       Why my life is hell?


Because the world is filled with judge mental jackasses and I'm stuck in the middle.


Get over it.

I did.