No Regrets

So I found this old message that cropped up... I sent it a while ago...

o.o

i didnt... no please no i didnt mean like that i just... no

i keep killing everyone and I cant do anything about it 

My life is a fucking fail

and I'm srry I cant get through to you or help.

You're acting like you never want to see me again.

Im obviously not you're one if you dont even want to try for later...'

I cant do anything right...

do you see what I mean now, do you??

Cause this always fucking happens to me and i cant stop it.

I cant ever fix anything and I'll never be able to.

yeah maybe I do love you too. Maybe I'm fucking terrified of loving someone cause I have my heart ripped out so fucking much

me loving you doesnt even fucking matter to you anymore.

really, I don't have any regrets... not even the worst days of my life because they help me learn... but when you find something like this from the past, then you should understand that you need to change, or talk to someone. 

Keep the ones you love close. Apologize to those that matter so they don't leave later. And open your mind. You need to be able to think in order to change.